This has been quite a week for me. I am learning a lot of lessons and some times that is pretty humbling.
Immediately the boy's father exclaimed, "I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!" (Mark 9:24)
This is one of my favorite verses. I love that God wants our belief, but if we are not believing as we should He will give us faith if we ask for it.
What does this have to do with my week? Well (digressing again) a few found a house we love in Toledo. Just perfect for our family. Move in ready. So we put in a bid and it was accepted. With a contingency. Because we needed to sell our house first.
(yes, this house!) Anyway, we knew there was a possibility that we could lose the house in Toledo. They were still open to bids since we needed to sell our house to buy theirs. So, this week it happened. They got another bid on their house that they wanted to accept. So, yesterday around 2, we got the final word. We had 48 hours to come through on our offer, or we lost the house.
I don't know about you, but we don't have the money for a down payment on a HOUSE just lying around. So, it was going to take a miracle for us to keep the home in Toledo. So we prayed and our friends prayed.
Guess what!?! Ha, fooled you, no miracle!! Of course, there are still 20 hours until we lose the house, but no one has shown interest in coming through the house. Now, I know God can still make it happen, but I don't think He will. I think He has a lesson He wants to teach me.
Kind of strange, I KNOW that He has called Kevin to our new church in Toledo. No doubts there. We wouldn't be going if we hadn't prayed about that. If we didn't feel sure. Kevin would have left the ministry rather than accept an assignment he didn't think was God's calling on our lives.
So, what is the problem? What is my lesson? It has become very clear to me in the past few days that I don't trust God with every aspect of my life. I trust Him to tell me what city to live in, but I don't trust Him to lead me to the right home. I don't trust Him to make sure our house here sells. I don't trust Him to meet our basic needs....
25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[b]?
28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matthew 6:25-33)
So, I have got to learn this one. To give up this control. To trust HIM to take care of even the little details.
Lord, I believe! Help me overcome my unbelief! Give me the trust I need to trust you!