Tuesday, October 13, 2009

The Amazing Race


Okay, if you know me at all, you know I love me some Amazing Race. Our household STOPS when it is on. The children are put to bed and threatened within an inch of their lives to stay there! It is the one night that I allow myself an evening snack. But that is not the race that I am talking about.

I'm talking about THIS race:

Acts 20:24

24However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace.


And recently the race has all been up hill. I think I'm halfway up the Rockies about now. I'm just feeling unsure of what our future is going to look like. Does the congregation at Grace want us to stay? We can't live on the salary so I will have to look for work. But where? And how do I maintain a house for 7 people, laundry, dishes, etc, for 7 people? It is a full time job for me now.

I've been so blessed to be available to my children during the school day. That probably won't be the case next year.

I'm not complaining, really, just ruminating. (I love that word!) Wondering what God has next on the map for my race.

There are some things that God has put on our hearts, real passions, and yet, I am not sure that they are open to us right now. In fact, I am sure they are not open to us right now. In HIS time, right?

So, right now I am going on faith, in a way I am not sure I ever have before

Hebrews 11:1

By Faith
1Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

That is so hard sometimes! Kind of like in the Indiana Jones movie where Indy has to step out onto the pathway across the chasm. Sounds easy, except the pathway is not visible to the human eye.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Tonni,
I so understand the race you are talking about and I share ALOT of the feelings you are having. I know that doesn't make your race easier but know that you are not alone. We are all running a race of some kind or another. My grandma used to say that if we all put our troubles in a hat and each drew one out again we would each hope to get back our own because we know how to manage it. It's true. The best thing that I've learned in my adult life...that i didn't know in my younger life....is that God is running the race with me and I'm never truly alone with my troubles. I love your blog. Thanks for sharing it. Mariah Kroger

carol said...

Ha! Wow - He definitely put the exact same words and thoughts in our hearts! That is awesome :) So know that you are not alone. And He is faithful...so much more than we can even begin to imagine...