Saturday, October 23, 2010

Things I Am Learning

This is not an easy post to write.  It has not been an easy week.  I am supposed to be at our Saturday evening service right now, but had to come home because 2 little girls could not behave.  We gave up wrestling with them and, since I was the one with a headache, I came home. The house is really quiet right now.  They are both sleeping. Hmmmmmm..... I wonder if waking up at 7 on a Saturday is catching up with them.  Personally, I have been awake since 3, (yes that is 3 AM) so 7 sounds like sleeping in.

We have a house still not selling in Cincinnati. Yes, we live in Toledo. No, we aren't rich. Yes, it is frustrating. But, ya know what?  I can't control that! (The selling of the house.)  I got a substitute certificate so I can sub in our local school district to help ends meet.  But, ya know what?  I haven't gotten a single call to sub!  I can't control that either.  Whining Worrying about it doesn't change it.

God and I had a talk about that this week.  He's not been looking at my planner.  Or following what I think needs to happen. Oh, it is a good thing He is a patient Father.  He keeps reminding me: (from Proverbs 3)

 5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
       and lean not on your own understanding;
 6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
       and he will make your paths straight. [a]
 7 Do not be wise in your own eyes;
       fear the LORD and shun evil.
 8 This will bring health to your body
       and nourishment to your bones.
 9 Honor the LORD with your wealth,
       with the firstfruits of all your crops;
 10 then your barns will be filled to overflowing,
       and your vats will brim over with new wine.

Then He reminded me of all the ways in which He has provided for us (monetarily) as I have been so concerned about our financial situation:
        ~people have brought us groceries
        ~we have had to buy almost no clothing for our five children
        ~we have been given a van for free(!)
        ~we have almost never paid for a baby sitter
        ~free movie tickets for our date nights
        ~free clothing for me and Kevin
        ~strangers handing us money when we were commuting between Cincy and Toledo to help pay for food and gas
        ~and many other things!

(If you have been the hand and feet of Jesus for us, thank you.  If you have prayed on our behalf, thank you.)

And I have always struggled with headaches, depression, etc...I don't usually blog about those things but God has been talking to me about them, too.  I was whining to Him about them

9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

Okay, I may not be where I am gladly boasting my weaknesses, but I am starting to understand that grace is enough for me!


Anita said...

Hmmm...what do I think? (Your question!) :) I think I've been there with you...many times before. It's hard, I know. I know that when we've had a victory in moving to where the Lord wants us....the enemy is not far behind to discourage, defeat and to keep us from what the Lord has which is victory once again. It comes in various you are dealing with...the kids, the house, the people, the whatever. You know I could say that there is obviously SOME big thing that the Lord has planned for you guys to be a target. And it is true. BUT, the day to day is still hard while you wait to see what that thing is. I hate these battles and hate the fact that we are at war. It's nice when there is a reprieve and we forget for awhile.

I will leave you with a couple of things that have helped me on this journey of life, ministry, etc. Many years ago when we were in a battle in ministry, the Lord gave me Psalm 107. The Lord has used it over and over again in my life to encourage and remind me that He is walking this journey with me and before me. AND the other is to keep the Praise music on and LOUD! Some times it's the ONLY thing that can draw my spirit to HIM when everything around is so discouraging.

Hugs and Prayers are with you my friend!! And THANK YOU for grabbing Kaleb's button and posting it! :)