As you may or may not know, I have clinical depression. I hate it. Counseling and medications have helped, but I still have some days that are rougher than others. Yesterday and today are those days. All I want to do is sleep. To be alone....like that every happens in household shared by 7 people. How can I be surrounded by people and still feel so lonely? Such a strange dichotomy. My energy is completely zapped.
Yet I know that it is temporary. In a day or two I'll feel just like myself again. Ready to face the world, be the helper my husband needs me to be. Be the mom the kids need me to be. These are the days when I rely on one of my favorite verses from Nehemiah. "For the joy of the Lord is your strength." Even when I am not strong, I can get strength from my Jesus. There is joy in my salvation, even on the days when I don't feel much happiness. Even on those days, I AM SAVED! There is strength in that.
So for today, I will meditate on that. And tomorrow, I pray I'll feel like myself.
Because HE Lives
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Posted by Mom to 5...Daughter of the King at 8:13 AM